That Girl

When I was in 8th grade, there was a girl in some of my classes. I never really paid attention to her until one day, when I was in the hall waiting for class to start, I was staring at her as I felt she looked beautiful and then she said, “Blake, I love you, you’re sweet.” That took me by surprise. However, I didn’t really have a drive to pursue her as a girlfriend but I did give her nice comments throughout the school year. 

In high school, we had lunches together. At first, I didn’t really do a whole lot with her until one day I had the camera on my Chromebook up and the girl noticed it then leaned against me for a selfie. 

From that moment on, we took lunch selfies, and continued with nice compliments. It was then I actually started to develop feelings for her as a potential girlfriend. There were many times, when I asked her how she felt about me but she didn’t want to talk about it, which I remained respectful about. 

During my second high school year one day at lunch, the girl took me to a table where a boy she knew was sitting. While I sat with them, the girl and the boy talked to each other almost the whole time, not really giving me a chance to talk to her.

Sometime later, we had a half-day and once again I sat with them until the bell rang. Once I stood up and got my belongings ready, I saw the girl with the boy with him telling her good luck for her appointment then they…kissed each other on the lips. Shock overtook me. When I got home I let out my emotions and kept getting choked up while eating my dinner. 

I went for a few days without talking to her just to recover from the feelings from what I saw. Sometime later, I had a talk with her and she said that she only liked me as a friend. Even though I was expecting it, I still felt upset. But she and I were still on good terms.

But then I began seeing the girl with the boy more often, usually in the hallways before I got to my class. I felt betrayed. At first I was angry at the boy for winning her affection but then changed it towards the girl for not choosing me. Whenever I saw them together, I was upset for the rest of class and whenever someone asked me what was wrong, I refused to talk about.

I didn’t talk to her for two months as I felt I was nice to her for nothing. However, later on I decided this resentment couldn’t go on forever. So one day when she was sitting at a lunch table waiting for early classes to start, I walked up to her and we talked. I asked her how her boyfriend was doing and she said he was doing fine. She also told me that he was a nice boy who was respectful to her. 

After talking to her about it, I began to feel much better and whenever I saw her with the boy, it didn’t bother me anymore. The reason for this was because I was seeing her with someone whom she actually wanted to be with rather than with someone whom she only liked as a friend. 

Even though I no longer had any disdain, I felt that it was still important for the girl to know about how I felt about her in the past. One morning before class, I got to talk to the girl how I felt about her before and she never knew that I liked more than a friend. When we done talking, we still got to be friends. 

Turns out some things that may seem wrong to you, could be the right thing for others. Even though I strongly resented the girl having a boyfriend who wasn’t me at first, I later learned to respect it as she was happy with him.

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